I am not back with him: Khloe Kardashian finally breaks silence about Lamar Odom
Khloe Kardashian took to Twitter on Wednesday to address backlash over a magazine interview about her estranged husband Lamar Odom.
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People magazine published a cover story where she addressed her decision to call off her divorce from the former NBA star following his drug binge at a brothel in Nevada.
But on Wednesday, the 31-year-old revealed she was forced to speak to the publication because she was 'contractually obligated' to in order to promote her new book, Strong Looks Better Naked.
She explained that the photo shoot and most of the interview took place before Lamar's collapse, but she was made to do a five minute 'follow up' call afterwards.
She wrote: 'I want to make this VERY clear.... My people cover, I shot and interviewed for PRIOR to all the events that happened.
'It was contracted press for my book that I wrote months and months ago. Timing is what it is.'
She continued: 'I had to do a follow up 5 minute phoner after the events only because I was contracted to. I cancelled my book tour to avoid this attention.'
Addressing the fan backlash, she wrote: 'Shame on you all for thinking the worst of me. It's been a tough few weeks. I don't need your f**ked up energy! Know the facts before you throw stones.'
In the magazine, she confessed she is not back together with Lamar just yet, despite holding off on divorce proceedings.
She explained that she filed the paperwork in order to continue making medical decisions for him while in a life-threatening condition.
She told magazine: 'I pulled back on the divorce because there is no rush for it. For medical decisions and a ton of other things, it's just smarter that it's put on hold.
'But that does not mean I'm back with Lamar. It's not even in our brains to think about us having a relationship. Only time will tell.'
Although she denied a reconciliation - a topic that has been heavily-contested over the past couple of weeks while she remains by his bedside - Khloe did confess to still having strong feelings for her ex.
'I loved him always, and I will always love him. I don't believe love is fickle. I believe when you love someone, you are allowed to love from afar. You don't have to be with that person in order to love him.'
Khloe and Lamar, 35, tied the knot in 2009 after a whirlwind one-month romance, and their wedding was broadcast on the family's reality TV show.
But their union fell apart and, in December 2013, Khloe filed for divorce.
In her interview and book extract, the reality star opened up on her 'magical' marriage to Lamar, explaining that she loved how their union boosted her confidence and helped her 'break free' of her famous family.
But she revealed that the former NBA star's downward spiral began when he was left 'emotionally destroyed' after his beloved LA Lakers suddenly transferred him to the Dallas Mavericks in late 2011.
Speaking about their good times together, Khloe told People that after being branded 'the fat, funny sister,' she loved that Lamar didn't care about her weight.
'Lamar loved me for who I was,' she told People. 'He never talked about my weight. That didn't matter to him. That's what gave me so much confidence.'
'There are pictures where I'm in a bodycon dress and it isn't the most flattering, but I'm holding his hand and I'm smiling from ear to ear,' she said.
In an excerpt from her new book, Strong Looks Better Naked, published in the magazine, Khloe wrote that their marriage troubles - and her dramatic weight loss - began after Lamar was suddenly transferred to the Dallas Mavericks in December 2011.
The move left the basketball star heartbroken, and Khloe struggled to support her husband and cope with her own loneliness from being away from her large family for the first time.
'By nature, I'm a people pleaser, and it is draining both physically and mentally to please someone who is emotionally destroyed,' she wrote.
'There was a lot on my shoulders - five months in this isolated situation, doing battle with my own emotions and trying to be strong for us.'
To cope with the pressure, Khloe threw herself into a new workout routine, calling the gym 'my escape.'
'I was really stressed and I needed a release,' she told People. 'It started becoming a healthy obsession. A side effect is I lost weight, but that was never my intention. It was for my mental sanity.'
The couple returned to Los Angeles in 2012, where their marriage deteriorated further as Lamar turned to drugs and was rumored to have repeatedly cheated on her.
But Khloe, who finally filed for divorce in 2013, has no regrets.
'It was the most magical, special time in my life, and I know what we had was really rare,' she told the magazine.
And The Keeping Up With The Kardashians star revealed in her book that tying the knot helped her 'break free' from her famous family.
'When I got married, I was no longer simply one of the Kardashians; I had my own life and a separate identity,' she writes.
'I had broken free. I was an adult (finally),' she said. 'But with Lamar gone, it was as if I had taken a giant backward step. I was back to being Khloe, but a somewhat more damaged version.'
Although the couple went through divorce proceedings in July this year, the papers were not yet officially signed off on due to a backlog of papers in the city of Los Angeles, meaning the divorce wasn't finalised.
Khloe's lawyer, Laura Wasser, appeared before a Los Angeles judge last Wednesday to withdraw the papers, a request which was approved.
The one-page document was submitted without prejudice, meaning the divorce papers can be refiled at a later date, according to multiple reports.
According to search warrant records, Lamar is believed to have overdosed on cocaine and other drugs before he was found unconscious at the Love Ranch brothel in Crystal, Nevada on October 13.
He was hospitalised in Las Vegas and transferred to Los Angeles, where his family later revealed that he was undergoing therapy and showing improvement.
Authorities haven't ruled out the possibility of taking action against the brothel or the sportsman.
Khloe went to his bedside in Nevada as soon as the news broke, where she has remained for much of the past two weeks, showing her devotion to her ex.
And although she has called off her fledgling romance with James Harden, 26, Khloe told People that the Houston Rockets star has been supportive as she deals with Lamar's health crisis.
'He's been great with me, and I'm just allowing everything to unfold,' she said. 'If it's ever too overwhelming, then I understand that as well.'
